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Daughters of Eve

by How To Disappear Completely

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1.
what i feel is of no consequence to you what i feel doesn't matter to people like you you never cared before, why should you care now you'll take any excuse to push me out and get on with your life ignore the pain we'll spit you up and send you on your way deep breaths cause half the battle is knowing you're alone waste my time everyones drowning here so just get used to it you wear your bruises like you good and asked for it and if it comes up choke it down, choke it down no ones got time for your pain learn to push your feelings down cold and alone it gets right in and settles in your bones deep breaths cause half the battle is knowing you're alone and i waste my time i waste my life waste my time yea, and now the world knows just who you are an empty shell and now the world knows what makes you tick what buttons to push and now the world knows i told the whole world theres not enough drugs in this whole town to ease your heart this whole town is lonely theres no life at all
2.
Outpatient 04:52
hurt all i love just to get a piece of you you wont see me but i'll be right there with you this will end bad for you i don't care what i have to do just let it all go i cant i cant let go i have to see the blood on my hands i cant pretend it leaves me you get what you've got coming in the end and the end, for me, cant come on soon enough cause im so tired and the fantasy was always better than the real thing every time don't think that it will ever be enough to fill the holes in me you're lying to my face again this life was wasted on me this heart was wasted on me what if this is all there is for me what if what i feel stays with me what if im a mess all my life cause i will always do what i do the best i'll get the damage done
3.
Closer to Me 04:02
do you ever think about me when your all alone and wanting someone to lay down and stop you from shaking the nights spent alone will just push you much further away let your guard down, let me come inside i got nowhere to go and you room looks quiet and peaceful its sacred and beautiful i just have to know you have to take it apart and make you know chorus- we can do anything we want theres only us now we can be anything we want theres only this now let me know what makes you move chorus- we can do anything we want theres only us now we can be anything we want theres only this now sometimes i cant even breathe when you're closer to me you take the breath out of me when you curl in closer to me
4.
take your sweet time just be there for me your all that i have now and thats all i'll ever need i didn't notice the feeling we kinda fell into each others arms ready or not we promise not to do each other harm chorus we are all before you just please believe in me we all stand before you just be here with me i put you out of my mind now those thoughts don't do me any good goddamn you're so perfect id wait for you, you know i would but i can feel you inside now and it slowly makes a space for you why are you walking away no one else could love you like i do chorus we are all before you just please believe in me we all stand before you just be here with me curves that could kill a man amen i don't have a reason for you to be in love with me take your sweet time just be there for me chorus bridge
5.
i hope this song will hang your life makes you stand up and scream or lay down and cry i hope this song tells you that your heart is in the wrong place and i hope it makes you able to sleep at night i hope this make you read more books or call your mother more, put the phone back on the hook she just wants to hear your voice even if its trembling i hope this song tells you that your friends are there to help even those who disappoint i hope this song tells you its ok to cry, never stop trying and i hope this song makes you apologize she wont wait forever and i hope you know it sometimes takes losing to appreciate being together i have hope for you i have hope for us hope i live to see the day when all the pain goes away hope i live to see the day when all this will be ok there is hope for you there is hope for us
6.
Nightmaring 04:17
say to me, the thing to me that'll make me hate you, something that will take it all back say the things you promised never to say again and i swear to god i wont say them back whisper bathwater to make me warm whisper ice cream when you want a kiss whisper im still here and i'll never run i'll never hide never stop shaking so i know that you're still alive whisper something please whisper something, let your voice be the last thing to go whisper something please whisper something so i know im not here alone stay with me, stay with me we don't have much time stay with me, stay with me i dont think im dreaming anymore i cant believe we ended up right here with you dying in my arms whisper something please whisper something, let your voice be the last thing to go whisper something please whisper something so i know im not here alone stay with me, stay with me we don't have much time stay with me, stay with me i dont think im dreaming anymore say to me, say to me something that tells me im not alone whispering to my self
7.
only if i had a way to get close to you if i had something left to hold onto maybe this wouldn't be so hard im giving it all away im trying my best to be patient doing what has to be done but feelings just wont stay down and you're all around me what do i have to do anything you want me to everything all for you just let me be with you i get so lonely it hurts to breathe in i get so tired of them always leaving im such a fool for you i've got it bad for you im such a mess without this in my life everything goes away i wish that you would stay theres such a hole in me, im so empty wherever you are i need you now more than i ever have im such a fool for you i've got it bad for you
8.
Bella 05:37
our patience tested our fist are clenched they're always trying to chip away everything that makes us beautiful in all of this decay were timid and were pure, they stole our innocence divine they fill our hearts with hatred and gave us anger for our time its not your fault don't ever let them in we can do what others cant we grow in anything we can move a mountain we can make it rain we'll turn this world on end to find a cure for all our pain look what they make you do look at the scars that stretch for miles we live our lives in chaos, our reality is violence but they expect our trust they haven't earned any respect lesser beings living lesser lives we have no use for that the sun comes up we lived through another day were always waiting for the water to carry us away they make us feel so useless were delicate like glass like everything we have to offer is only worthy of the trash and we could have this world ten times over if only we could just start feeling better you get so used to being pushed down and now were pushing back till there is no one left to fight till there is no one left to fight we faulter but we will never break we wont be moved we stand our ground forever we'll smile through the blood point and laugh at each others wounds they'll fade away in time whats one more scar with what we've been through we're players in this life were not just sitting in the stands we earned our right to peace by the back of someones hand we bide our time this all will wash away and i had it all before, so i know it exists i had it in my hands once, but i got left with this theres a lesson in the fall the pride of getting up again we document every mistake they'll never fool us again we bide our time this all will wash away nothing will matter in the end we'll fix ourselves we'll fix ourselves
9.
Prozac Smile 06:32
silenty, we signal to others like us fallen from grace, you can see it in there eyes there is no future, there is no plan we live hour by hour, and day by day every waking moment numb to the touch the reality is deeper than what you see you don't want to know just turn right back around you do not have what it takes to see inside of me chorus: you're all just fooling yourselves theres nothing out there just find yourself a soft place to lie down and die you're all just fooling yourselves its all been just a dream and soon you'll find out theres nothing left for you and me i have never felt so alone in my whole life i have never felt so alone and thrown away even in this crowd were still all alone everything goes away and everyone goes away and this is what its like when nothing helps when no one and nothing makes you feel alive where the beauty in this life they promised me i caught them all in the lines they fed me since i was just a boy why does everyone i know make me feel all alone all these broken people without the strength to get up and make a change
10.
'Riss 04:13
tell me when its over cause right now breathing is torture im right where i should be so why aren't you right here with me i guess this is all i am good for to have to watch you walk out that door chorus- but i know something you don't know and i am never letting go tell me what you're thinking im afraid i am already sinking down faster i cant move why do i shake when im near you you've already won me over but this prize is going nowhere chorus: but i know something you don't know and i am never letting go i know you and all the games you play and im not fooled by the look in your eyes goddamn your eyes and this is how you get thrown away by me and this is why they all go away from me chorus and i can take all that your throwing i can wait till this world caves in i let you in to thicken my skin and i just want you
11.
Matriarch 08:04
you came at a time when life was hard for me you made me smile when i thought i could weep and i never thought i had this in me you were born and the light came into me you only you are all that matters to me i'll never be far away the hardest thing was not being in your life but at the time they didn't want me there and i just felt like maybe they're right but you still never let me go you only you are all that matters to me thank you for being the light that i need all this time i never knew i had this in me you are always with me i hope that you can forgive my mistakes i swear one day i'll tell you everything you only you are all that matters to me thank you for being the light that i need all this time i never knew i had this in me you are always with me im sorry i have not been around but there is no place for you when im feeling down i didn't want you to see me like this but trust me those are days with me you're not gonna miss i swore to myself this wasn't for you i promised i would never let them do it to you too so i took all the blame i swallowed all the pain and i forced it all to go away so we can be safe with you always
12.
mothers all your daughters are in pain fathers all your daughters are destroyed by you brothers all your daughters are unwatched, unsafe sisters all your daughters are detached from the earth her face hides in the rain listen to her gentle heart she lulls me to sleep i come undone when were apart im alive when were alone i'll do anything for you let me lay in your grace for a day let me see this through all i have inside she makes it all ok just to speak her name and im blown away i can feel you in my bones i can hear you in my head i can shed my skin for you i will come apart for you i will ruin my whole life just to have a smile from you i am down on my knees with all i am for you dream away with me i'll cherish her for all my days i'll rest so peaceful in her name i'll lay my burdens down for good i'll go beyond what no man should i'll best the devil, keep you safe i'll beat the demons in your name i'll keep a light always with me so i can watch you fall asleep i rest my head, im by your side forever into your desire and all i'll ever ask of you is to be aware of what you do the power you have over me can easily be ill conceived we must be good to our dream to keep this safe for you and me i just wanna get a taste of you let me in closer we'll discover ourselves in motion we'll walk the water and we'll glide in tune you have my heart you have my soul

about

How To Disappear Completely formed in the spring of 2012. Current members of Architect (blackmarketactivities/metalblade records) needed another outlet for some of their lighter ambient interests and emotions.

Daughters of Eve was a concept that was conceived after coming off of the road with Architect. Music was changing, the world was changing, and members of Architect were getting older. What was once teenage angst was manifesting and solidifying into old bitterness, and apathetic resignation.

This record was a peace offering to an ocean of women who have, for better or worse, had a part in sculpting a wretch of a person into a man. Many of these women had a hand in shattered illusions of love and relationships, and broken fragile ideals that needed to be broken. The Disney aesthetic of what love is proved to be nothing but lies and heartbreak. We we're raised to believe that life could be a fantasy and we're left out in the cold with reality hanging on our shoulders.

The themes and subject matter of this record was a way to send a message that "I get it now, and I'm sorry it took me so long." Many women have had a part in dragging us, kicking and screaming, to rise to the ranks of becoming the man that we were capable of being, and many of these hero women go unsung.

This is a tribute to the single mothers who raise boys into men without the help of a father, who should have been there but weren't.

This is a testament to the strength of nurturing and delicate vulnerability that only a woman can teach you.

This is a 'mea culpa' to the sacred feminine. The balance of the two forces that is constantly pushed down and in doing so throwing life out of balance.

This is a flag raised to the daughters of eve, who are the originators of making something from nothing, of giving and using their bodies in order to sustain and create life, and an understanding and acceptance of those who can't or don't wish to put their bodies through that. A woman's body is her own business, to us.

This is for all those women who fell victim to the irrational anger and testosterone driven confusion and insanity of a boy who was thrown out into a world that wasn't built for someone like him, and to the women who helped him stand up, dusted him off, set him right and made him try again, who taught him that just because he was different did not mean that he was wrong or bad, and that different was a freedom to create his own path and forge his own world.

This is for all of the women.

Thank you.

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released September 30, 2014

Written, Recorded, Produced, Mixed, Mastered, Artwork by James R. Bailey

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Rock n drone from the wastelands of Syracuse, Ny, a place where there is no light but a constant grey and nothing grows.

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